thought of the day

why do guys talk about marriage when they are dating a girl?
is it because they think its what the girl wants to hear or is it because they truely mean it?
from personal experience its simply because they think its what girls want to hear.
to be honest...i dont want someone to even think about talking to me about it ever again
unless you are serious.
i don't want to hear it if its not true.
it hurts too much for it not to be true in the end.

Growing Up

I have had the incredible experience to come up to Utah to stay with my brother and future sister-in-law for this week since their wedding is on Saturday!! Super exciting! Anyways, to start I want to talk about how weird the feeling was to be back here. It was unreal and one of the most weird feelings I have ever had in my life. I couldn't even describe it. But it was pretty cool to see the old neighborhood and all. Well then I was able to visit with some old old friends from back in the day. When I say back in the day, I mean kids I went to elementry with. We grew up in the same neighborhood and everything and I think its incredible that a lot of them are still there. Well one night I was able to stop and visit with three particular boys that I have known since elementary. It was a very interesting experience. It just shows me how much I'm growing up and changing and that life is going by so fast. It was so interesting to talk to them. One of them was a basketball player in high school, super cute, gets all the girls, hard worker from what I see in him, and has just signed up for the marines. Then another one is kind of the smart quiet but speaks his mind to anyone type, been in and out of trouble with drugs including having his license revoked and been to rehab and is continuing down that road. Then the third is this super sweet, nice, rule-obeying sweet heart that has just recieved his mission call. All three of them grew up in the same block together and still continue to carry on their bond no matter where life is taking each them. It was the coolest thing to see how totally different people can still be bonded and have that friendship. It also was fun to see what people were doing with their lives and see the paths they are taking and their outlooks on life. If anyone has an opportunity similar to this I would say take it without thinking twice. Its so intriguing and fun to listen to stories and hear about others lives. Especially when you remember them as the little children you knew them as. Keep in contact with as many people as you can throughout your life and you won't regret it. Love unconditionally and accept others for who they are and who they are becomming. Engage yourself with others and their lives. It will be worth it.

Oh boy.....

Man, I really hate relationships and how quickly and drastically things change. It's been really hard for me to update my blog knowing what all my last posts were about. Chris. It's extremely difficult to read those now. In case you didn't know, we're no longer together. Its been....rough to say the least. I'm having my ups and downs with it. Tonight is one of the downs. But its life. There's not much I can do but live my life the way I know I am supposed to and trust in my Heavenly Father that He will bless me for doing so. I am working hard at doing that. Its definitely a struggle. I go back and read what I wrote and because we aren't together anymore I want to say that I don't believe we were ever that crazy about each other. But I don't think that's true. I know I felt exactly everything I've said about him and our relationship. I think that's why its so hard for me to just let go even though I know that's what I need to do. Anyways, I don't exactly want to talk much on the subject cause of the pain it brings. I just needed to get that over with.

So I went and saw the movie Dear John tonight. One word- depression. This movie was so incredible but it made me sooo sad.

It just made me think about Chris the entire time. Every little thing in the movie was just a reminder of the little things me and Chris have together. I related so much to it and I don't know if that was good or bad. haha I had to keep myself from literally weeping and sobbing throughout the movie. It was very difficult to sit through, and it also scared me so much. If any of you didn't know, Chris is in the military. Well as of now he goes to the Naval Academy, but after graduation he will be deployed and all that jazz. And watching this movie just terrified me. I needed him there with me more than ever to hold me and tell me everthing would be ok and that he was here. It was just really difficult. I just want anyone who watches this movie to see the love those two have for each other and know that is exactly how I feel about my Christofer. He is my light my world my strength. He is my everything. I don't know how I'm going to handle saying "See you soon then" to him when he is being shipped over seas. I can barely handle sending him back to school. Anyways, I just needed to vent.

Til Next Time,

EMILY

LAKER GAME

Well it's been a while since we went, but I'm going to tell everyone about our trip to L.A. anyways. haha Chris and I were able to take a quick trip to Los Angeles, California to go see a Laker's game. If you didn't know, that is Chris's all time favorite basketball team and the one I most despise! lol When you love someone you must make sacrifices right? haha Anyways, so we left around noon on Tuesday,12-29-09 and the game started at seven. We got to the hotel around 4:30, and both of us were pretty tired so we decided to nap. Unfortunately for Chris (poor guy) I just couldn't sleep so I figured I'd just get myself dolled up for the game. haha and this is when I discovered all the things I forgot to bring.

HERE we go :

Tooth Brush/Toothpaste

Deodorant

Curling Iron

Blow Dryer (thank heavens they have them in most rooms)

Hairspray

Eyeliner (well my good one anyways I lucked out and found my old one)

Camera

I think that's about it. Haha So everything I needed to bring to get ready I pretty much forgot. Well Chris being the wonderful man that he is :) skipped his nap to go check out their shop in the lobby to see all what he could get for me. I hopped in the shower and used their crappy blow dryer to dry my hair. It took forever. When Chris returned I was able to completely get ready cause now I had hairspray and a toothbrush and all. It was incredible. Haha The best part was the camera. He bought a disposable camera which was so sweet because I was so upset that we forgot one. Except he paid $14.99 for it. HAHAHA I couldn't believe it! He had no idea they are only like 5 bucks regularly. We decided we'd just take it back but instead of doing it right away we'd just do it when we checked out. Now......Time for the game!

Our hotel was just up the street from the Staples Center (walking distance easily) I did really well at picking the hotel haha. And we had a blast at the game :) See the picture. haha

After the game, we decided we weren't too hungry because we had MASSIVE hotdogs at the game. haha So we walked back to the hotel and got in our jammies and just watched t.v. I figured we'd end up just going to sleep but after about an hour we decided we got pretty hungry and found out there was an Ihop or Denny's and a Subway. I chose ihop so we walked and had a nice midnight meal. And back to the hotel we went for some sleep.

The next morning check out was at noon. We didn't end up waking up until a little after 11 haha So we rushed to get our stuff together and get ready. Then headed to check out where we also wanted to return the camera. Turns out, over night they like to change their prices of things in this little shop and it just so happens that over that one night we were there was when they changed the price of the camera's. lol So instead of 14.99 they were now 15.99 and they wouldn't let us return it even when I said, "I will just give you the dollar to make up the difference." So we got stuck with a fifteen dollar disposable camera. haha

Driving home pretty much sucked. It was bumper to bumper traffic for about two hours in the city. Once there was a little break in traffic we were relieved until next thing we know we hit more bumper to bumper traffic. After about three and a half hours we made it to Barstow where we took a rest and ate some food. My mom was in Cali the same time we were so we met up with her and my aunt and my mom decided to ride home with us. Just our luck, it was the day before New year's eve and everyone was heading to Vegas. So bumper to bumper traffic ALL the way home. It was a nightmare. So our trip home that should have taken about 4 hours took us about 8 and a half hours. But it was worth it and I know I had a blast. I'm very happy I got to take that trip with him and I wouldn't have traded that for anything.

MY WEEKEND- BITTERSWEET

THURSDAY:
worked then went bowling and rocked out in the car with colton :)
FRIDAY:
day off. met up with colton for lunch.
then me and heather went to the mall.
got new jeans and panties. WOOHOO!
then bowling again with heather, colton, sean, sawyer, jake dinino (who's that haha) and matt.
then playing scramble at raising canes.
rocked out more in colton's truck.
totally jumped out of a car and totally like rolled my foot hahahah
movie night at colton's house.
SATURDAY:
no sleep. worked 8 hours.
then a bunch of just horrible horrible horrible.
talked to mel for a bit.
trip to vons to get ice cream.
nothing was going right. car wouldn't start. (later realized it was in drive for some odd reason. im an idiot)
ice cream made me feel better.
rocked out in colton's truck with him and heather. haha crazyness.
another movie at his house. then more HYPER crazyness!! haha
SUNDAY:
bum day ALLLLLLL day.
finally showered at 4:30 in the afternoon.
got to like somewhat talk to chris today.
now laying down quoting toy story word for word as i watch it. haha
GOOD NIGHT!!!

MY BUCKET LIST

SO today, I found this in my drafts. Something I was supposed to post long again. like 4/15/09 is when I started it. Just never finsished writing it. Now, I am able to check some of these off :) HOW awesome is that. haha It made me pretty excited to see I accomplished somethings on my bucket list. All those with stars are what I have done so far.

1. Tie die all sorts of things.

2. Ride Primm Rollercoaster

3. Watch the sunrise/sunset with someone

4. Lay out at night and admire the stars **

5. Enjoy the beach **

6. Laugh until I cry **

7. Do something people would least expect of me. **

8. Write more poems/stories **

9. Pull an all-nighter **

10. Stay in bed all day and watch movies. **

11. Make a difference

12. Hike around Red Rock **

8 out of the 12 I had written, NOT BAD!!! :)))

Labor Day in Maryland

To start off, I just want to say my first trip to Annapolis, Maryland is one of the most memorable weekends of my entire life. Over labor day weekend this year (September 2009) I had the opportunity to fly out to Maryland with Chris's family to visit him for the weekend. We got up really super early Friday morning and hopped on the plane at about 6 AM. Since they are three hours ahead of Vegas time we landed around 4 PM. The anticipation of getting to see Chris for the first time in almost 3 months kept me awake for the entire flight. Haha. Unfortunately, Chris was extremely busy that night with his school work and making those stupid bulletin boards that's a whole different story. Anyways, so we got settled in our hotel room where Carl (Chris's dad) disinfected the entire room including the beds. Haha. Well since Chris was super busy that night, we didn't get to see him but we got the chance to drive onto the "Yard" which is what the campus of the United States Naval Academy is called and see how beautiful that place is. It was so amazing there. I loved it. We weren't exactly hungry but we ended up at the Double T diner which is the place to go in Annapolis if you are ever there. We just got some dessert that night and I had a delicious strawberry shake :) We ended back at the hotel room and passed out for the night. The next morning was so crazy. Just the feeling was intense knowing that I was going to get to see Chris within a matter of hours. We were up by about 7:30 getting ready and weren't allowed to pick Chris up until about 12:30. Obviously we had some time to kill. So we got ready and left the hotel around 9. While waiting for the time to come, we headed back to the Double T diner for breakfast then drove onto the yard in hopes of picking him up a little early. Unfortunately it didn't happen. We went to the visitors center to check things out. It was fun for me but his family had already been there twice so I don't think they were to thrilled to see it all again. haha Well we decided to go around town do a little shopping. I bought a Navy sweater and a Navy t-shirt. I loved the little shops they have there. Its much like any other touristy area and the little souvenier shops the big cities have but its in this small town of Annapolis that I never even heard of until Chris. Haha But this place deserves to be known. Its GORGEOUS. Anyways, finally the time came for us to pick up Chris. By this time the anticipation was killing me!!! I wanted to scream from excitement. We drove back onto the yard and went to pick him up by his
dorm room. Funny thing, he wasn't there. He thought we were picking him up from a different place and the worst thing about the Yard is you drive one way all the way around it pretty much. Haha So my excitement was really getting to me. We got to the area that he was at and Carl goes "Now Emily, control yourself. We don't want you running up and jumping on him and wrapping your legs around him or anything crazy." Haha It was pretty funny. Then....the big moment......I saw him. I was so happy, I thought I was going to cry. I got out and gave him a huge hug and the first thing he says is "Give me a kiss". I was extremely happy but shocked because he told me he'd never even hold my hand in front of his parents. Haha. I was in heaven at that moment and I will never forget that feeling. Well we got in the car and I couldn't stop looking at him. He was perfect. As much as I knew that I was the luckiest girl in the world before this trip, at that moment, it was all reassured to me that he was so completely amazing and I just really lucked out on this one. From there we went to the mall to take Chris to lunch at Red Robin. One of my favorite places EVER (fyi lol) but I was still too full from breakfast. Even all through lunch, my insides were just turning with excitement. I was with him and I couldn't have been happier. From there we walked around the mall a bit but no one really had anything to do or buy so we decided it was time to go back to the hotel room for nap time. Haha I must admit I was a little sad that some of my time with Chris would be wasted sleeping. But we got to the room. Everyone put on their jammies and we crawled into bed. I thought I was in heaven when I first saw him, but a new kind of heaven opened up when I was able to lay in his arms. I have never been more happy to nap in my entire life. Not to mention, I don't think I have ever slept so well. If there was one moment in time that I could live over and over, it would be that moment. Well we woke up from our naps and got ready again to go to dinner. None of us could decide on what we wanted so we ended up at, oh what do you know, the Double T diner. Haha
After dinner we still couldn't decide on what we wanted to do so we figured we might as well just go back to the room and relax. Once again it was so amazing to just get to lay in his arms and talk with him. I wish I could have that all the time. I will definitely say that I cherish those little things more than ever because I don't have them very often. Of course Chris had a midnight curfew so we drove him back to the yard and the whole time I wanted to cry. Even though I knew I would see him again the next day, it was so hard to say goodbye.
The next morning we all woke up a little bit early because it was Sunday and Chris and I were going to go to church. When we got to the church, Cameron cried and cried so we decided it was best to just take him with us. Funny. Haha He was such a stinker but I thought it was funny like I always do when kids are that way. Chris took him out in the hall and then when sacrament was over we were going to leave and Cam told everyone he talked to "Chris bad boy. Chris spank. Chris stop it now." Hahahahaha It was the funniest thing lol. After church we went and got pizza for lunch then headed back to the hotel so his family could take a nap. While they did that Chris and I went to see a movie. (All About Steve) Once again, I cherish that time we had together where I could just sit next to him and hold his hand. At the end of the movie, we had a red slurpee that he was holding and he said something silly so I went to hit him jokingly and really hit the cup. Red slurpee all over his white uniform!!! I felt soo bad! I wanted to cry. Lol So after the movie it was nap time for us too. We went back to the hotel napped ( HEAVEN on EARTH) woke up and went to Outback steak house for dinner. YUMM!!!! Then we walked around that shopping center for a little bit. Drove around town more and got some ice cream. Still with nothing to do, back to the hotel room for some relaxing time. I loved it. Dropping him off that night was even harder knowing that the next day wouldn't be the same and I would be going back home.
Monday had come and it was the day he had to stay on the yard and he had LOTS to get done. For lunch we just picked up some subway and headed to the yard where we ate lunch with Chris. This is where he gave me a special gift that I cherish. Then we walked around the yard to see everthing. It was gorgeous. Me and Chris didn't really talk a whole lot. We both just knew that it was our last little bit together for a while. It was very sad and I had to fight back tears multiple times. Well after a couple hours with him, he needed to get some stuff done so we said our goodbyes. :( Not a fun time. I didn't cry. I am shocked. I held my composure really well but after we left I knew my whole demeanor had changed. With really nothing to do and no where to go before we had to get to the airport, we drove to Washington DC. It was pretty awesome to get to see all of the government buildings and what not. Then off to the airport.
The flight was a very interesting one. I did tear up a bit but did really well at stopping myself. Almost the whole flight Chris's parents and I talked about tons of stuff. It was so nice to just talk to them and get to know them and have them get to know me better. It was a great way to end a great trip.

Remember the Sacrafice

You stay up for 16 hours.

He stays up for days on end.

You take a warm shower to wake you up.

He goes days, even weeks, without running water.

You complain of a headache and call in sick.
He gets shot at while others are hit, and still moves forward.

You put on your anti-war and don't support the troop shirts and meet up with friends to protest.
He still fights for your right to wear that shirt.

You make sure your cell phone is in your pocket.
He clings to the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.

You talk trash about some of your "buddies" that aren't with you.

He knows he may never see some of his buddies ever again.

You walk down the beach looking at all the pretty girls.

He walks the street searching for insurgents and terrorists.

You complain about how hot it is.

He wears all of his heavy gear and doesn't dare take off his helmet to wipe his brow.

You go out to lunch and complain that the restaraunt got your order wrong.

He doesn't get to eat today.

Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.

He wears the same thing for weeks but still makes sure his weapons are clean.

You go to the mall to get your hair redone.

He doesn't get to brush his teeth today.

Your angry because you class or meeting ran 5 minutes over.

He was just informed he will be held over and extra 2 months.

You call your girlfriend to set up a date for tonight.

He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.

You hug and kiss your loved ones like every other day, not thinking much about it.

He holds his letter close and smells his love's perfume.

You roll your eyes and sigh when a baby cries out loud.

He gets a picture of his new child and wonders if they'll ever get to meet.

You criticize your governent and say war never solves anything.

He sees the innocent tortured and killed by their own people and remembers why he is fighting.

You hear jokes about the war and make fun of men like him.

He hears gunfire, bombs, and screams of the wounded.

You see only what the media wants you to see.

He sees the broken bodies lying around him.

Your parents ask you to do a chore or go to the store. You blow it off.

He does exactly what he is told even if it puts his life in danger.

You crawl into your soft bed with down pillows and get comfortable.

He tries to sleep but gets woken up by helicopters and mortars all night long.

You stay home and watch t.v.

He takes whatever time he is given to write home, sleep and eat.

Please remember those who sacrafice everything for your freedom. Don't mock or judge them. If you do, I guess that's ok. Its not like you know the people who fight day in and day out for you to live your life comfortably anyways. Just remember to keep them as well as their families and loved ones in your prayers. Be grateful for their sacrafice.

Miles Away

Although you are miles away.
You’ll always be in my heart to stay.
You make me happy and everything more
You make my heart flutter and soar.
I don’t like to be without you.
My days are lonely and often blue.
But it’s okay
because I know someday
We can always be together
No matter the times no matter the weather.
You are my everything.
You free my heart to be happy and sing.
I can’t wait to see you get back
You presence is needed and most in lack.
I love you and miss you. I can’t describe my feeling.
All I can do is thank through kneeling.
Because God, He’s the one who sent you to me.
To finally be happy and see life like it should be.

I CAN SAY I KNOW...

So i know its been FOREVER since i last posted a blog. So i figured tonight would be the night i would start again. Its been crazy the last little while. Things have changed in my life dramatically. Somethings for the better and some for the worst.

The one biggest thing in my life other than graduating high school is a very special person walked into my life. CHRISTOFER ANDREW COMBADO.

I've never met anyone like him and he has turned my entire world upside down. All i have to say is, timing is everything.

I've known Chris for about 3-4 years now. We both worked at Aliante Golf Course for quite a while and also went to the same school, but the most conversation we ever had was him asking for a drink since i worked in the restaurant at the course. (his favorite was dr. pepper. haha) So we didn't talk much. We knew who each other were and everything but honestly i never even thought about us ever really hanging out let alone being together. Not in a million years.

Well during my senior year of high school i went through some extremely hard times, which at this time he happened to be in Rholde Island at NAPS (naval academy prepatory school). Towards the end of my senior year i started to get over those hard times and become myself again, and as this was happening, Chris came home for the summer.

One night i was "cleaning my room" haha sitting on facebook and posted a status that said something about being bored and i wanted someone to text me. Within a matter of minutes i got a message on face book from Chris. We got to talking just small talk about him being home from school and what he had been up to and everything. Really it was the first conversation we had ever had. We got to talking about going golfing together while he was home for the 5 weeks just because we both worked at the course before and had that common connection to one another. So i gave him my number to text me and that night he did. :)

We decided we wanted to play 20 questions since we didn't really know what else to talk about considering we'd never really talked to each other before. Well i can say we got to know each other really fast. haha Within the first night i felt an attraction to him even though we were just texting. Pretty crazy i know. But that's just how it was. We talked about hanging out eventually and of course i didn't expect it to happen.

Two nights later was my Senior Powder Puff Game. Don't forget that we had been texting non stop since the Sunday before this night. Not only texting but flirting like crazy. haha So after my game i texted him and was telling him about it and i was giving him a hard time about not making it to the game. He had been at dinner with his family and told me he wanted to hang out to make it up to me. At this point it was about 9 at night. I thought he was crazy but agreed to it anyway. We couldn't really go anywhere to hang out because of the time so we met up at the park in my neighborhood. I was still all dressed up in my powder puff gear (which he has told me he thought i was absolutely adorable lol) and what not and we just walked around the park talking. Conversation didn't stop and never once was it akward. He was just an amazing person to talk to. We sat down on a bench next to each other and all i could think about was how much i wanted him to kiss me even though we had just started talking two days before. Nothing happened. :(

UNTIL, we started walking back to our cars because it was about ten thirty now and my parents would have been calling any minute. He walked me to my car and we gave each other a hug good bye. It was one of those long- i dont want to let go- hugs and as we slowly pulled away i tilted my head up to look at him and HE KISSED ME! I can't explain the butterflies i felt in my stomach that night. Nothing like i've felt before. We both got in our cars and drove to our houses. From there, its pretty much history.

He was home for five weeks. There was only ONE day in that five weeks that we didn't see each other or spend the day together. If we weren't alseep, we were together. Sometimes even when we were asleep we were together haha Things became serious fast. Which normally that would scare me away. Not this time. He is something special. Like they say, When you know, you know. And I can say that I KNOW. We both felt something very strong for one another very quickly and like i said, timing is everything. No other time in our lives would this have worked out like it did. But boy am I glad that it has worked out.

Chris is the greatest blessing in my life and some people don't exactly understand it. They think I am dumb for being so sure at 18, almost 19. Some people think i'm crazy. Some people don't want to believe that over the course of two days of just talking a true kiss would come from it. Some people don't want to believe 5 weeks of being together would determin the fact that i want to marry Chris and be with him for the rest of my life and all eternity. But that's what they believe. I KNOW. And that's what matters. I am finally truely happy.

Life To Live

Here is a poem I wrote a while ago. Just thought I'd share my writing on my blog. Let me know what you think....

Life to Live
You show a lack of pride in me.
I don’t know why you cannot see
Everything that I’ve done right
In my life, and now in spite,
I’ve made decisions that I know
Led me to a path I didn’t want to go
I have become cold and cynical to the world
All my visions I had for life are swirled
Into this big mess I’m trying to find
The right way out but I feel blind.
I need the help you used to give
Please help me with my life to live.

Lifeguard Adventures

So last weekend ( May 1st-May4th) I was able to recieve my lifeguard certification, and I would have to say it was flat out one of the most fun experiences of my life. I was in a class with the 4 greatest girls ever! Chenae-nae, Krithy, Shley, and Tori Lynn. It was a blast all thanks to these girls. On Friday- we started off driving to Club Sport (where the class was being held.) in Henderson. We needed to be there at 4:00 and since it was far and we didn't know exactly where it was, we left at 2:30. Just to be safe. Well its sure a good thing we left when we did. Haha We ended up going the wrong way and took the whole hour and a half to find it. But the car ride was great anyways. We just talked and talked about the funniest stuff. It was just great. Well anyways- the class that night consisted of the pre swim test where we had to swim 300 meters and then dive down and get a 10 lb. brick off the bottom of the pool and swim using only our legs 20 meters. I was the most nervous for this part. I had been practing my swimming for about two weeks and just didn't think I could swim. But I underestimated myself. I did it with no problems whatsoever. I was so proud of myself. :)) Then when everyone was outta the pool, our instructor Justin, took us to the class room where we watched almost 4 hour of video. Obviously, that part really sucked except the fact that we got out of the class an hour early which was totally awesome.

By the way- I'm totally upset we didn't take any pictures during this weekend. Stupid.

Anyways- the next day (Saturday) was a super long day. We had to be there at 8. Meaning leave at 6:45 to be on time, and had to stay til 6 that night. But we had a blast all day. 10 hours in the pool. Who wouldn't have fun? haha Anyways- this is the day we learned how to do all the rescues.

(This is not from my class, but it is how we rescue someone. haha I did this many times.)

We learned all there is to know about saving someone from drowning (DUH). It was so much fun. Other than getting burnt like crazy. I have never used so much sunscreen in my life, and yet I've never been so sunburnt EVER. It was really bad. But now its worth it because I finally got a little color! HAHA

Well the 3rd day, Sunday, was the day set to learn all the CPR/AED and FirstAid training. We had to watch more videos which was really hard to stay awake considering the previous day's adventures and having to be there at 8:00 (leaving at 6:45 again). Plus the room was dark. Haha. Well we survived and headed into another room, "the karate room" where it was like a million degrees! Not really, but it was freakin hot in there. No air circulation or anything plus our sunburns. It was HOT. But once again FUN. We practiced our CPR a trillion times and then did AED drills which was fun. The best part about this day was Chenae. HAHA Everytime she messed around or said something to make us all laugh or just something, Justin was looking. It made us crack up. Especially when Chenae's dummy lost his pulse and she over reacted and Justin pushed her face into the ground. HAHA good day.

The last day, Monday, we had to be there later in the afternoon to take our test. This day was not so much fun lol. No Chenae (she was super sick) and No Justin (he just wasn't working that day). We learned onland spinal and reviewed for our test. Test time came and we all passed with flying colors. I only missed 2 out of 70 questions. (they were stupid questions too). I was very proud of myself. This weekend was one that made me feel very accomplished.

So now I'm an official lifeguard! :)) Just gotta find a freakin job!!!

Haha I love this little logo thing. Teehee!

Everything will be OK in then end. If it's not OK, it's not the end.

Hey Guys!-
Just thought I'd leave a little note on a lesson I've been learning the last little while. Its about making life what you want it to be and staying positive. The last few months (4 months to be exact) have been some of the roughest times in my life. I've never shed so many tears and felt so much heartache than I have those 4 months. I am still struggling but I am getting better each day. I am learning that you have to let yourself be happy no matter the circumstances or situations you are in, otherwise you'll never be able to pick yourself back up. A huge lesson from all my recent experiences is that you can't rely on others to make you happy. You can't rely on others to make you a good person. That is your choice and responsibility. If you don't accept that and act on that, you are setting yourself up for let down all the time. I let others drag me down and am now suffering the consequences. I thought certain people in my life were making me truely happy and making me the person I wanted to be. Its taken some time for me to realize that I was not who I wanted to be. I was no where near it either. I'm learning more and more each day and have decided to focus my energy towards other things and finding new passions in life instead of feeling that hurt, loss, and heartache I've been feeling all this time. I hope what I have to say can touch someone's life out there and others can learn along with me.
"Everything will be OK in the end. If its not OK, then it's not the end."
till next time,
EMILY

Rearview Mirror

I am sitting in my room relfecting back on highschool and thinking about how much life has changed the last 4 years. My heart is broken and aching like it never has before. Those who were closest to me in the beginning are now completely gone and out of my life. It hurts me to no longer know these amazing people. I am so confused. What happened? What went wrong? I have so many questions.
Not only did I lose these wonderful people, but I have also lost myself along the way. I remember back when I took my challenges and turned them into ways to learn and grow. Now I find myself just trying to hide my challenges from myself and the world in hopes of them going away. But that obviously doesn't happen.
I don't know how this all happened. I am trying my hardest to stay positive and just move forward. But my heart aches day in and day out for things to be the way they used to.
I am trying so hard to forget about that rearview mirror. For you can't drive forward down the freeway looking into your rearview mirror. I need to take what I can from the past and continue forward in life. I just seem to hit these little bumps like tonight that cause me to look back into that mirror to see what I have missed. To see if I can make sense of that bump and what has happened.
All those special people in my life the last four years, I thank you for all you have done for me. I thank you for all the lessons you've taught me. I am so grateful to have known your amazing spirits. I was blessed to be able to know you all, and as I go about my life, I will NEVER forget you. I loved and I learned from all of you. So thank you. You are what encourage me each day to move forward on this road.

My Life In A Nutshell

HEYO!!!

I am really hyper right now for some reason and totally craving some super fatty fast food. Hopefully I can keep myself in check and just make myself a sandwich or something.

Anywhosiers- just thought I'd fill everyone in on my life up to date.

I was born in Provo, Utah and grew up in Orem, Utah. I loved it there while I lived there and still talk to a few people I went to elementary with. Heather Lewis was my absolute best friend growing up. We did everything together. (She lived just 5 or 6 houses up the street from me so it made playing very convienent for us.) It was a fabulous place to grow up and I have so many childhood memories. I will eventually write a post about that but for now I will stick to the basics about me.

The summer after my 6th grade year, I was moved to Las Vegas, Nevada due to my dad's career. I was so upset to find out I was moving. The move was one of the hardest times I have had to go through in my life so far. But I have never been more grateful for such a challenge. Seventh grade was pure hell for me, but going into 8th grade I met a few special people who brought me to the point I am today. (Chenae Mc Anally and Karalyn Hardy) Those girls mean everything and more to me and I am eternally grateful for their wonderful spirits that befriended and encouraged me.

I went to middle school starting at Lied Middle School and ended that phase of my life at Saville Middle School where I was on the cheerleading squad. Time of my life was being with those girls on that squad. At the same time of being a cheerleader, I was invited to join a ballroom dance team. Another amazing experience that I will expand on some other time.

I am currently a senior at Shadow Ridge High school and have attended this school for the entirety of my high school career. During my freshmen and sophomore years, I played on the junior varsity softball team. Oh boy how I loved that. Now I am a bum and haven't really participated in much since. I work at Aliante Golf Course inside the restaurant as a bus person, and have been there since June 2006.

Pretty much that is my life so far. I will definitely be expanding and writing alot more on many of these topics that I have mentioned, and I can't wait to share them with you. :)) Well I will stop boring you to death haha.

So til next time,

EMILY SHIPTON

Starting Off

Hey Guys-
I am brand new at all this blogging stuff, and I am oh so excited! I hope what I have to say can save the many memories I have as well as shed some light for all those who read it. I have stories to tell, experiences to share, and lessons to learn along the way. I hope you enjoy. I love you all!