Oh boy.....

Man, I really hate relationships and how quickly and drastically things change. It's been really hard for me to update my blog knowing what all my last posts were about. Chris. It's extremely difficult to read those now. In case you didn't know, we're no longer together. Its been....rough to say the least. I'm having my ups and downs with it. Tonight is one of the downs. But its life. There's not much I can do but live my life the way I know I am supposed to and trust in my Heavenly Father that He will bless me for doing so. I am working hard at doing that. Its definitely a struggle. I go back and read what I wrote and because we aren't together anymore I want to say that I don't believe we were ever that crazy about each other. But I don't think that's true. I know I felt exactly everything I've said about him and our relationship. I think that's why its so hard for me to just let go even though I know that's what I need to do. Anyways, I don't exactly want to talk much on the subject cause of the pain it brings. I just needed to get that over with.