I CAN SAY I KNOW...

So i know its been FOREVER since i last posted a blog. So i figured tonight would be the night i would start again. Its been crazy the last little while. Things have changed in my life dramatically. Somethings for the better and some for the worst.

The one biggest thing in my life other than graduating high school is a very special person walked into my life. CHRISTOFER ANDREW COMBADO.

I've never met anyone like him and he has turned my entire world upside down. All i have to say is, timing is everything.

I've known Chris for about 3-4 years now. We both worked at Aliante Golf Course for quite a while and also went to the same school, but the most conversation we ever had was him asking for a drink since i worked in the restaurant at the course. (his favorite was dr. pepper. haha) So we didn't talk much. We knew who each other were and everything but honestly i never even thought about us ever really hanging out let alone being together. Not in a million years.

Well during my senior year of high school i went through some extremely hard times, which at this time he happened to be in Rholde Island at NAPS (naval academy prepatory school). Towards the end of my senior year i started to get over those hard times and become myself again, and as this was happening, Chris came home for the summer.

One night i was "cleaning my room" haha sitting on facebook and posted a status that said something about being bored and i wanted someone to text me. Within a matter of minutes i got a message on face book from Chris. We got to talking just small talk about him being home from school and what he had been up to and everything. Really it was the first conversation we had ever had. We got to talking about going golfing together while he was home for the 5 weeks just because we both worked at the course before and had that common connection to one another. So i gave him my number to text me and that night he did. :)

We decided we wanted to play 20 questions since we didn't really know what else to talk about considering we'd never really talked to each other before. Well i can say we got to know each other really fast. haha Within the first night i felt an attraction to him even though we were just texting. Pretty crazy i know. But that's just how it was. We talked about hanging out eventually and of course i didn't expect it to happen.

Two nights later was my Senior Powder Puff Game. Don't forget that we had been texting non stop since the Sunday before this night. Not only texting but flirting like crazy. haha So after my game i texted him and was telling him about it and i was giving him a hard time about not making it to the game. He had been at dinner with his family and told me he wanted to hang out to make it up to me. At this point it was about 9 at night. I thought he was crazy but agreed to it anyway. We couldn't really go anywhere to hang out because of the time so we met up at the park in my neighborhood. I was still all dressed up in my powder puff gear (which he has told me he thought i was absolutely adorable lol) and what not and we just walked around the park talking. Conversation didn't stop and never once was it akward. He was just an amazing person to talk to. We sat down on a bench next to each other and all i could think about was how much i wanted him to kiss me even though we had just started talking two days before. Nothing happened. :(

UNTIL, we started walking back to our cars because it was about ten thirty now and my parents would have been calling any minute. He walked me to my car and we gave each other a hug good bye. It was one of those long- i dont want to let go- hugs and as we slowly pulled away i tilted my head up to look at him and HE KISSED ME! I can't explain the butterflies i felt in my stomach that night. Nothing like i've felt before. We both got in our cars and drove to our houses. From there, its pretty much history.

He was home for five weeks. There was only ONE day in that five weeks that we didn't see each other or spend the day together. If we weren't alseep, we were together. Sometimes even when we were asleep we were together haha Things became serious fast. Which normally that would scare me away. Not this time. He is something special. Like they say, When you know, you know. And I can say that I KNOW. We both felt something very strong for one another very quickly and like i said, timing is everything. No other time in our lives would this have worked out like it did. But boy am I glad that it has worked out.

Chris is the greatest blessing in my life and some people don't exactly understand it. They think I am dumb for being so sure at 18, almost 19. Some people think i'm crazy. Some people don't want to believe that over the course of two days of just talking a true kiss would come from it. Some people don't want to believe 5 weeks of being together would determin the fact that i want to marry Chris and be with him for the rest of my life and all eternity. But that's what they believe. I KNOW. And that's what matters. I am finally truely happy.