Life To Live

Here is a poem I wrote a while ago. Just thought I'd share my writing on my blog. Let me know what you think....

Life to Live
You show a lack of pride in me.
I don’t know why you cannot see
Everything that I’ve done right
In my life, and now in spite,
I’ve made decisions that I know
Led me to a path I didn’t want to go
I have become cold and cynical to the world
All my visions I had for life are swirled
Into this big mess I’m trying to find
The right way out but I feel blind.
I need the help you used to give
Please help me with my life to live.

Lifeguard Adventures

So last weekend ( May 1st-May4th) I was able to recieve my lifeguard certification, and I would have to say it was flat out one of the most fun experiences of my life. I was in a class with the 4 greatest girls ever! Chenae-nae, Krithy, Shley, and Tori Lynn. It was a blast all thanks to these girls. On Friday- we started off driving to Club Sport (where the class was being held.) in Henderson. We needed to be there at 4:00 and since it was far and we didn't know exactly where it was, we left at 2:30. Just to be safe. Well its sure a good thing we left when we did. Haha We ended up going the wrong way and took the whole hour and a half to find it. But the car ride was great anyways. We just talked and talked about the funniest stuff. It was just great. Well anyways- the class that night consisted of the pre swim test where we had to swim 300 meters and then dive down and get a 10 lb. brick off the bottom of the pool and swim using only our legs 20 meters. I was the most nervous for this part. I had been practing my swimming for about two weeks and just didn't think I could swim. But I underestimated myself. I did it with no problems whatsoever. I was so proud of myself. :)) Then when everyone was outta the pool, our instructor Justin, took us to the class room where we watched almost 4 hour of video. Obviously, that part really sucked except the fact that we got out of the class an hour early which was totally awesome.

By the way- I'm totally upset we didn't take any pictures during this weekend. Stupid.

Anyways- the next day (Saturday) was a super long day. We had to be there at 8. Meaning leave at 6:45 to be on time, and had to stay til 6 that night. But we had a blast all day. 10 hours in the pool. Who wouldn't have fun? haha Anyways- this is the day we learned how to do all the rescues.

(This is not from my class, but it is how we rescue someone. haha I did this many times.)

We learned all there is to know about saving someone from drowning (DUH). It was so much fun. Other than getting burnt like crazy. I have never used so much sunscreen in my life, and yet I've never been so sunburnt EVER. It was really bad. But now its worth it because I finally got a little color! HAHA

Well the 3rd day, Sunday, was the day set to learn all the CPR/AED and FirstAid training. We had to watch more videos which was really hard to stay awake considering the previous day's adventures and having to be there at 8:00 (leaving at 6:45 again). Plus the room was dark. Haha. Well we survived and headed into another room, "the karate room" where it was like a million degrees! Not really, but it was freakin hot in there. No air circulation or anything plus our sunburns. It was HOT. But once again FUN. We practiced our CPR a trillion times and then did AED drills which was fun. The best part about this day was Chenae. HAHA Everytime she messed around or said something to make us all laugh or just something, Justin was looking. It made us crack up. Especially when Chenae's dummy lost his pulse and she over reacted and Justin pushed her face into the ground. HAHA good day.

The last day, Monday, we had to be there later in the afternoon to take our test. This day was not so much fun lol. No Chenae (she was super sick) and No Justin (he just wasn't working that day). We learned onland spinal and reviewed for our test. Test time came and we all passed with flying colors. I only missed 2 out of 70 questions. (they were stupid questions too). I was very proud of myself. This weekend was one that made me feel very accomplished.

So now I'm an official lifeguard! :)) Just gotta find a freakin job!!!

Haha I love this little logo thing. Teehee!

Everything will be OK in then end. If it's not OK, it's not the end.

Hey Guys!-
Just thought I'd leave a little note on a lesson I've been learning the last little while. Its about making life what you want it to be and staying positive. The last few months (4 months to be exact) have been some of the roughest times in my life. I've never shed so many tears and felt so much heartache than I have those 4 months. I am still struggling but I am getting better each day. I am learning that you have to let yourself be happy no matter the circumstances or situations you are in, otherwise you'll never be able to pick yourself back up. A huge lesson from all my recent experiences is that you can't rely on others to make you happy. You can't rely on others to make you a good person. That is your choice and responsibility. If you don't accept that and act on that, you are setting yourself up for let down all the time. I let others drag me down and am now suffering the consequences. I thought certain people in my life were making me truely happy and making me the person I wanted to be. Its taken some time for me to realize that I was not who I wanted to be. I was no where near it either. I'm learning more and more each day and have decided to focus my energy towards other things and finding new passions in life instead of feeling that hurt, loss, and heartache I've been feeling all this time. I hope what I have to say can touch someone's life out there and others can learn along with me.
"Everything will be OK in the end. If its not OK, then it's not the end."
till next time,
EMILY

Rearview Mirror

I am sitting in my room relfecting back on highschool and thinking about how much life has changed the last 4 years. My heart is broken and aching like it never has before. Those who were closest to me in the beginning are now completely gone and out of my life. It hurts me to no longer know these amazing people. I am so confused. What happened? What went wrong? I have so many questions.
Not only did I lose these wonderful people, but I have also lost myself along the way. I remember back when I took my challenges and turned them into ways to learn and grow. Now I find myself just trying to hide my challenges from myself and the world in hopes of them going away. But that obviously doesn't happen.
I don't know how this all happened. I am trying my hardest to stay positive and just move forward. But my heart aches day in and day out for things to be the way they used to.
I am trying so hard to forget about that rearview mirror. For you can't drive forward down the freeway looking into your rearview mirror. I need to take what I can from the past and continue forward in life. I just seem to hit these little bumps like tonight that cause me to look back into that mirror to see what I have missed. To see if I can make sense of that bump and what has happened.
All those special people in my life the last four years, I thank you for all you have done for me. I thank you for all the lessons you've taught me. I am so grateful to have known your amazing spirits. I was blessed to be able to know you all, and as I go about my life, I will NEVER forget you. I loved and I learned from all of you. So thank you. You are what encourage me each day to move forward on this road.

My Life In A Nutshell

HEYO!!!

I am really hyper right now for some reason and totally craving some super fatty fast food. Hopefully I can keep myself in check and just make myself a sandwich or something.

Anywhosiers- just thought I'd fill everyone in on my life up to date.

I was born in Provo, Utah and grew up in Orem, Utah. I loved it there while I lived there and still talk to a few people I went to elementary with. Heather Lewis was my absolute best friend growing up. We did everything together. (She lived just 5 or 6 houses up the street from me so it made playing very convienent for us.) It was a fabulous place to grow up and I have so many childhood memories. I will eventually write a post about that but for now I will stick to the basics about me.

The summer after my 6th grade year, I was moved to Las Vegas, Nevada due to my dad's career. I was so upset to find out I was moving. The move was one of the hardest times I have had to go through in my life so far. But I have never been more grateful for such a challenge. Seventh grade was pure hell for me, but going into 8th grade I met a few special people who brought me to the point I am today. (Chenae Mc Anally and Karalyn Hardy) Those girls mean everything and more to me and I am eternally grateful for their wonderful spirits that befriended and encouraged me.

I went to middle school starting at Lied Middle School and ended that phase of my life at Saville Middle School where I was on the cheerleading squad. Time of my life was being with those girls on that squad. At the same time of being a cheerleader, I was invited to join a ballroom dance team. Another amazing experience that I will expand on some other time.

I am currently a senior at Shadow Ridge High school and have attended this school for the entirety of my high school career. During my freshmen and sophomore years, I played on the junior varsity softball team. Oh boy how I loved that. Now I am a bum and haven't really participated in much since. I work at Aliante Golf Course inside the restaurant as a bus person, and have been there since June 2006.

Pretty much that is my life so far. I will definitely be expanding and writing alot more on many of these topics that I have mentioned, and I can't wait to share them with you. :)) Well I will stop boring you to death haha.

So til next time,

EMILY SHIPTON

Starting Off

Hey Guys-
I am brand new at all this blogging stuff, and I am oh so excited! I hope what I have to say can save the many memories I have as well as shed some light for all those who read it. I have stories to tell, experiences to share, and lessons to learn along the way. I hope you enjoy. I love you all!